Monday, September 01, 2008

Denial August

I had worked tonight's post in my head yesterday when we were at The Westfest Polka Festival in West, TX. We go every year and I was going to fill tonight's post with funny stories about the kids and how much fun they had doing the chicken dance. This is not that post.

When you look back at the posts for the past several weeks, you might notice that I have not been mentioning Eva's cancer very much. I think it is because subconsciously, I was enjoying what I have called "Denial August."

Jon and I just spent the month having fun as a family, doing our dance parties, naked racing (the kids, not us), celebrating our anniversary, watching the Olympics, etc. Just not focusing on Eva's illness at all.

Well, it is September now. Today, I was checking in one of the kids with NB that I follow, Max, only to find that he suddenly passed away last night. He was seven.

My heart breaks for the family. He's been progressively getting sicker and sicker but his passing was completely unexpected, yesterday.

I guess August is over. Eva gets a CT and MRI on the 10th. I get the results on the 12th. Jon is in SE Asia for that week but when he returns, we will have to decide our next move with Eva's regrowth.

Time to move to the next month.

14 comments:

Vicki G. said...

Keep the faith Kristi. We'll keep praying hard. Hugs to all....

Terrie said...

Love and Prayers.

Laura said...

Peace.
Prayers.
Patience.
Posted- as in "keep us posted."

(On a much lighter note: naked tot racing- very interesting.)

Anonymous said...

As always, we will keep Eva and all of you in our prayers. -Gina & Brian

Gina said...

Praying for you and lifting Eva up. I pray for peace and wisdom for you and good sleep. BTW I love the new look.
Gina Ryan (mom to Carter)
p.s. I was also very shocked by Max's passing. I followed his blog as well.

Kristin said...

Oh my goodness. So sad for Max and his family. What a beautiful boy.

It seems like denial was the best thing you could possibly do during August - you can't do anything in between doctor visits except have fun and strive for some sort of normal. From the sound of it, you did a great job at both, and I'm sure your kids appreciate it!

Continued prayers from Walling Lane for Eva...

Kimberly said...

I am still praying for Eva! Hugs to you from VT!

polkadotwitch said...

i'm so sorry about max. crud.

i'm glad you did lots of wild and crazy things in august.

i can't tell from the tone of this is you feel guilty about the denial or not.

try not to.

good times are good times no matter when they fall.

love to you all from upstate NY!

January said...

Yes, keep the faith, KDB. Everything will be alright.

Patty Williams said...

We will be praying for you and your family - think good thoughts! Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. Denial is sometimes the only way to keep sane between doctor's apts & tests - keep thinking positive thoughts.

Angel said...

"If you're happy and you know it clap your hands (clap clap). If you're happy and you know it clap your hands (clap clap). If you're happy and you know it, then you're face'll surely show it. If you're happy and you know it clap you're hands (clap clap)."
Just think of the damn bunny...that'll put a smile on your face. I love you!!!!!

Amy Jo said...

Much love to you...We are praying for peace and wisdom for your family and the doctors.

Glad to hear that you have not had any more "nakedness" episodes since the race...I've been trying to cut down on that myself lately. :)~

Dad 2 eight said...

Would that I could spare you the path you and Jon have to walk with little Eva. But the Lord wants you to walk it with courage and trust. Two commodities that are sometimes in short supply in my life, but, thankfully, in abundance in your own.

Carolyn Wing said...

Max's passing has made our NB world much dimmer and heaven much brighter. I am praying for your tests to go well and come back good. Hugs and prayers. Carolyn Wing grandma to Laura Stage IV neuroblastoma carepages.com page name LauraVDB
ps: Thank you for having Laura's site listed on your page.