Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Again, With the No News

Well, here I sit tonight at a laundromat also known delightfully known as a "washateria" outside on the sign.

In addition to the many wonderful things that have happened to us in the first half of the year, our washer seems to have clogged and flooded the garage over the weekend. So, on a Tuesday night, I'm here. I have to admit, I kind of like the laundromat. It smells clean and you always see such interesting people here.

It is also a nice break from the family so I can take a moment to write. I have a ton of work to do and will get to it in a moment. For now, I'm just sitting in my bolted down chair with my computer plugged into the back of a washer where I have unplugged another washer to use my computer.

Today has been a tough day. After obsessively looking at my phone all day long, I finally got the word at 3pm that I was not going to get the word until tomorrow.

This waiting. This waiting has been excruciating.

You know, it is not as if I am waiting to find out if Eva will be well. I'm having to wait for almost an entire week to find out where she will fall on the scale of bad. Will it be really, really bad, really bad, or just bad? I think by far that is the hardest part. At least when you have hope that all will be well, you can cling to it. I'm just clinging to the hope that it is just bad and not really, really bad.

I hate to be so sad in my post but this really is beating me down a bit. I'm just ready to get the news and move on with what the next steps are.

Hopefully, that news will come tomorrow.


Cher said...

My dear Kristi - yes, you surely are being put to the test in so many different capacities. BUT like the rebel that you are you continue to move forward! I SO admire your strength and wit! Hang in there my funny friend and know that I'm praying for you and little Eva...all will be okay! LOVE you and MISS you....

MOM said...

Kristi you know you are not waiting alone and the prayers are flooding the gates of heaven.
Eva is in the Lords hands and his love for her will be revealed. This is all easy to say but more difficult to really live. I pray for God's peace to be there to confort you and Jon tonight.
Love and hugs to you all, Mom

Laura said...

Peace and prayers.

strawberryfields4ever said...

Bink, you are so very strong and have endure so very much already. My heart aches for you. I know you are discouraged. Please know that we are all praying. We love you guys!