Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Confession Tuesday

Well, I'm very happy to be back in the confessional. It has been the longest 12 days imaginable.

For those new to the blog, each Tuesday, several of us enter the confessional. You can find more on Poet Mom's website or by visiting Carolee's website. Also, when you are on Carolee's site, please give her some warm wishes. Her mother is very sick. We've both been going through cancer at the same time. Life is definitely fragile.

First up, I'm so happy to be able to visit other blogs, again, and see what others are writing. As more people are reading this, I have gone to other sites and seen some really great work out there.

Oh my god, my body is shutting down from exhaustion. I'm not sure if it is stress-related or 3am dance party-related but boy, I need some sleep bad.

I love spring (see earlier post from Sunday). My confession is that I usually take a "sick day" and do my planting for the season. I will not be doing that this year as I have been away quite enough, thank you. AND it is not just because my boss reads my blog!

I am SO far behind on thank you notes, phone replies and emails. I'm just so exhausted at the end of the day, I can't seem to get them done! I feel SOO guilty about it. Hopefully, those to whom I owe phone calls, thank you notes and emails understand.

I'm really, really, really sad that The Wire is finished. I feel like I knew those folks so well. I mean, what will my Sunday nights every 18 months be without McNulty, Lester, Kima and Bunk? Never mind, Omar, Marlo, Bubbles, Michael, The Greek, oh, I could go on. Live in peace without me, Baltimore...

Just two weeks ago, the day before I went to the dr. with Eva, I commented to Jana that I felt badly that I never blogged about Eva. I mean, Jack is the trouble maker. She's just this sweet kid who quietly destroys things in the house. Not the crazy 4-year old who loudly destroys things in the house. Honestly, when I made the commitment to Jana to blog more about Eva, this was not what I had in mind AT ALL!

One quick and final note about Eva. We have follow up doctor visits Tuesday and Wednesday. That is when we discuss whether or not Eva has the marker that determines the next round of treatment. I'm scared to death of the news we might get. You can bet, I'll be posting...


karen said...

God is so good. I am so glad to see Eva up and about and probably causing normal toddler turmoil in the Bernstein house. We will be thinking of you today and tomorrow while you figure out your next steps.

We spent the weekend snowed in at our friends in Vermont without electricity so we could not check the blog. The pics are so cute!

Hope to see you all very very soon. The moving van comes on Thursday.

Love you all.
Karen :)

Be at peace.

Christine said...

I'll be keeping Eva in my thoughts and prayers.

I'm so impressed with your resiliency, and Eva's. You all have true grit.

I don't think anyone is expecting you to email or call. Let the grapevine take care of it, and when the dust settles you can send an update email to everyone. That's my two cents, anyway, but I was never very good at social niceties.

I'm going to have to rent The Wire. Haven't see any of them.

give your kids an e-hug from an e-friend, me.

Anonymous said...

i'm glad you are an expert at 3 a.m. dance parties and the requisite beverages. we may need to have a dance party summit between albany and boston. jill has even offered to dance on a table at the coffee house if it will make me feel better. :)

thanks for taking time out of your own stress to comfort me, too.

susan said...

Glad to hear things are on the upswing and my continued prayers for Eva and all of you.

Maria said...

I think I can speak for almost everyone when I say that no one is expecting a hand-written thank you note from you!! Do not stress your tired self out over thank you notes. You need all your strength and energy for whatever might come next, even if it just means returning to life as normal and getting annual CT scans.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. Whatever the results, I know Eva will shine through it all.


...deb said...

So happy to hear from you. Sweet Eva. Special family you all are.

I'll be checking back to learn more. Good thoughts are with you all.

jill dupre' said...

Thanks for the blog updates. We are all so happy to see Eva back home and smiling.

You are all a lesson in the spirit of love and strength and family that we all strive for in our own lives. The Bernstein's show us how it's done. Thank you. Jill